you dont understand what i feel

i feel pissed.
i mean dont you get it. i miss my friend
im sorry for making this a big deal.
pero talaga paminsan, parang binabale wala mo nalang ako

i respect the thing you have with her.
but the thing is. sometimes, when i say hi..
you dont say hi back and you would always say... "susunduin ko xa"
i wanted to talk to you.
i wanted comfort from you.
i needed you.

and today, when we fixed things and you said. "u want to hang out tom?"
of course i'd love to be with you. i miss having your company.
but when you suddenly said that i am going to be with you and her and some of your friends..
i might just be out of place. i might not even have a decent conversation with you.
i thought that the hangout you were referring to was that we are just alone, the 2 of us.
i might just be interfering with your plans..

you changed.
a lot.

then i told to my friend whats wrong.. he said that
"if he doesnt have any interest in having a friendship with you, pabayaan mo xa, who cares naman diba? parang sinasabi nya na he doesnt want to be with you anymore. ede pabayaan mo xa. thats what ayie does."

he has a point.
but the thing is, you are one of my friends that i just cant let go and be someone your really not.
its not only me that is feeling this way towards you..
i just hope that soon, you'll get my point..

am i overreacting? :(

missing my friend..
feeling a little bit bitter..
reg.