i dont seem to understand

so here, i made a blog. exactly 12:12 in the morning, october 16, 2007.

wondering why such title?
well here it goes.
i have this friend that doesnt seem to understand why im feeling like this.
she asked me to go with her to her high school dance, and she knows that i like that guy. guess what? she asked that guy to be her date to the dance. i mean seriously, i know that she likes her and he likes him but i dont get the point of giving me the every detail of "the thing"
i paid the fee last night. (not sure if im going but, its safe to pay right away, told her that going or not, ill still pay) and she kept on babbling about the dance, the transpo, her date. not to be rude or anything but please. you know i like this guy. and please. just stop. im trying not to show that im affected.
and now she asks some of our friends if im mad at her or something.
thank you for those people who understands what im feeling.
the truth is, im not. so chill out. im happy for the both of you being dates to that dance, but i just dont like to interfere with both of your plans. thats 1 reason why im not sure im going to go to that event. secondly, its exams week next week, so probably i wont be able to go, im stuck at home, being a nerd and all. thirdly, im not sure of my schedule. so please dont speculate that im mad at you, okay?
please understand what im feeling. i know you are excited and you want to share that excitement to everyone else, but oh please please, understand what i feel.
its my first time to like a guy after 6 months after the crushed relationship of mine. please lang talaga, sana maintindihan mo.

so yeah. sorry na. hindi ako mapalagay.

will update sooner or later.
adios amigos.
reg. :)