so sorry..

so to you guys out there whos reading my blog whenever. im sorry i dont get to update. been depressed most of the time.. school, grades, soccer, love, teachers, parents... almost everybody is giving me a hard time nowadays. so. im really sorry.

been thinking once in a while why do things have to be this way..
is it me?
is it them?
or its really this way?
no idea. but ill let God take me to wherever he takes me to.

do you know the feeling that ur just pissed because you are and you dont mind the others but yourself. its like. you are in your own world. isolated. stuck. misery. regrets. broken hearts. depression. and you just feel that everything is against you?
i cant get out of it. i dont know why. i just cant.
any suggestions?

what should i do?
what should i say?
to whom should i listen to?
to whom should i lean down for an advise?
to whom should i ask for help?
should i just stay at the terrace, staring at all the stars, count them one by one and think?
or should i just lie down on my bed, stare at the ceiling and wait?
or simply, just live my miserable life?
questions dear. questions.
cant get enough of them.

help me. i just cant live like this forever.
sorry if my blog is like this.
im plain feeling troubled.

reg